January 12 2013

I decided to have a new life. The kind of life that I don't imagine myself.

Discipleship.

Quit Ego-centrism.

Being Humble.

What else? Right now, it's just so hard.

I decided not to go in the prayer meeting a few hours ago because I wasn't feeling good about myself. Yet still, I need to overcome that part of me. I, too, wonder when will this end? When will these crippling thoughts withdraw from me?

“Even if we don't have the power to choose where we come from, we can still choose where we go from there. We can still do things. And we can try to feel okay about them.” 
― Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower

This is something I need to grasp for myself. I need not to see the symptoms anymore, I need to see the disease and get some cure of it.